Wishful Thinking!
I spent Valentine's Day 2026 watching the 50 Shades of Grey movies. I watched all three in order back to back to back! It really triggered me making me thing of the last around 8 years of my life and how I really wished to serve my owner of the past 8 years for the rest of my life but it wasn't meant to be. It was very depressing watching the 50 Shades movies even though they were better than what I thought they would be because I wished I had that type of relationship with the girl I served and bent over backwards for the past 8 years. I would have been her slave including financial slave the rest of my life if she stuck to her word and she and I could have made things work including with me attempting to make things work financially to continue to do and pay for the things I love. It got tiring being broke for someone who didn't appreciate me half the time. I was depressed last night missing her but I didn't reach out to her in anyway. I just laid in bed in my own m...